My #introduction toot!
I'm Andy and I'm the admin of mentalhealth.social.
My interests are covered in my profile. On #mentalhealth I've briefly known the Black Dog in the past and work hard to keep him on a leash. My wife lives with #BPD bundled with #anxiety and #depression (though has a grip on all of them) and her illnesses are one of the things that drive me to be so passionate about #MH support and care. Which is why I set up this Masto instance; a safe place to socialise and chat. 👍
“Ah yes child let me tell you about the Great Quarantine of 2020. No hologram technology, meetings in PJ's, eating breakfast 5x a day, playing N64 during breaks, digital dining with friends and rewatching Community all night. It was amazing.”
“-Is that when you gained 500kgs, grandma?”
Meanwhile, Mac users should immediately remove the #Zoom app again as they have a full root take-over risks, plus invisible webcam audio/video leak on their system.
11.30pm. Woop. Tired. Bolognese cooked and @Jo's lunch in the fridge for tomorrow as a result. Her last shift for five days, so I'm looking forward to the weekend with her. I'm lucky. Also: overnight oats on the side for her very early breakfast. I think I rock. 🙏
I want @Jo back home. This was a day off for her. She volunteered to head back to the ward and do a half shift 4-10pm today. And is back on shift tomorrow. I love her. I miss her. She fucking rocks.
Isolation and my 18 year old and 13 year old are bashing out cool shit on their Minecraft server. Really cool to see them working together, having a laugh and enjoying themselves, even with everything going on. I expected eldest to be going stir crazy by now, as he's a party and gig kinda guy. But no. I'm happy. 🙏
My bit: this is a legit app, developed by research teams in the UK, sent to me by a friend I've known for 30 years who works in the NHS and has worked with the teams. Data is anonymised, though it DOES need to know where you are to track your symptoms (or lack of) daily.
Think, crowdsourced symptom data. UK only for now.
Started noodling with an old personal project today. A kind of IF engine slash toolkit. I don't think I'll mess around with complex SQL databases or auth or anything like that - LiteDB, obfuscated paths to stories, passwords to "secure" them from unknown editors, just keep it simple. Then maybe expand it to make it MU-like.
PS: by explaining this on the Internet, I'm being very eagle-y and cognitive. The irony isn't lost on me. Defence mechanisms are such fun.
So I've been trying to meditate lightly this evening. Favourite incense. Cool, quiet, dark room. Piano music.
I keep crying.
I know what it is. My "eagle" going away and my emotional self bubbling up. Scared. Tired. Not worried though. My therapist would be totally cool with it.
I'm still finding it so difficult to smoothly transition from my observant, cognitive self to my emotional self. It's jarring. Trying times.
No Swayze, no wayze. Am I right? (Also: Irene Cara.) #80s
Dev. AppSec/InfoSec guy. Writer. Hubs. Dad. Punk of Many Colours. Mental Health First Aider & Advocate. Middle-aged Northern Brit. Sweary. Simplifying life.
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