Rev. Andy 🐺 @andy@mentalhealth.social

My #introduction toot!

I'm Andy and I'm the admin of mentalhealth.social.

My interests are covered in my profile. On #mentalhealth I've briefly known the Black Dog in the past and work hard to keep him on a leash. My wife lives with #BPD bundled with #anxiety and #depression (though has a grip on all of them) and her illnesses are one of the things that drive me to be so passionate about #MH support and care. Which is why I set up this Masto instance; a safe place to socialise and chat. 👍

When you can't sleep, you're up at 4am, your NextCloud server is fucked and you realise you accidentally downgraded the VM to 512MB of RAM. 🙄

Enjoyed today's sobriety app pledge motivational. 🙏❤️

I guess I don't have a point. My therapist would be happy though, I slipped into an emotional place when that music came on and that's a good thing for a guy that used to spend far too much time as a hyper-vigilant guardian of his pack.

If anything, don't neglect your physical self when you're working on your emotional/mental self. The two are inextricably linked, from what you shove into your mouth to how you hold and move your body. Move your mind and body in unison.

And try yoga.

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The weird feeling I get when I listen to this song now is wholly pleasant. It's calming and it takes me inside myself and into a good place. Not at all upsetting (and to be honest, when I was crying my eyes out at it, walking in the dark, I couldn't explain WHY I was crying).

People forget the connection between the mind and the body, whether it's diet (the brain-gut connection) or our experiences. Our nervous systems have memory and unprocessed trauma can sit in there for years. Decades. 2/n

Bit of an odd one. Some piano music just appeared on Deezer and reminded me of something.

When I was seeing a therapist back in 2019, in the first 10 minutes of our first session we talked about trauma and healing. He mentioned that yoga has a really high success rate in assisting with releasing "locked up" trauma. The shit your nervous system keeps hold of like a coiled memory.

I remember walking back from my first yoga lesson, listening to this song and suddenly bursting into tears. 1/n

That was supposed to be "sooooooo" but fuck it, it works. 🐺

Awoooooo tired. It's all getting a bit Groundhog Day now. Called out for food so an earlyish night after eating, I think. And maybe up early for some quiet writing. G'night and stay safe, fedifam.

Really need a self-care day today. So quiet, calm, lots of reading and writing I think.

Unfortunately, it seems my Nextcloud + Collabora installation now craps out on opening my main project document. It's not a massively beefy server and the doc is 160 pages long and growing, so I'm not really surprised. I guess I'll have to think of an alternative, which may end up being my Chromebook + a small Windows box on eldest's ESXi + remote desktop. C'est la vie.

☣️ Boil-washing COVID-contaminated scrubs like a boss. ☣️ #HardcoreHouseHubs

Yesterday was a fucking difficult day, mentally, emotionally and physically. Lack of sleep, working all hours and this fucking virus pushed me over the edge. Feeling a bit better today, thanks to 12 hours of sleep and some familiar rock music from my youth that never fails to cheer me up.

Hm, the diagram in my ukulele book for Em contradicts online examples, as it has the 4th finger on the 4th string and fret as well. I don't know enough theory to know if this is correct.

4432 vs. 0432

Hmm. I'm too tired for such complicated problems.