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I'm Andy and I'm the admin of

My interests are covered in my profile. On I've briefly known the Black Dog in the past and work hard to keep him on a leash. My wife lives with bundled with and (though has a grip on all of them) and her illnesses are one of the things that drive me to be so passionate about support and care. Which is why I set up this Masto instance; a safe place to socialise and chat. 👍

Slightly more compos mentis now.

To be clear, these are prescribed meds. I have Temporal Lobe Epilepsy and even though a grew out if it in my early 20s, it resurfaced a few years ago.

High fever can bring on dyscognitive seizures (absences) so rather than go back to taking Carbamazepine every day for the rest of my life, I pop Clobazam whenever there is a risk of seizure. Does the job by turning me into a zombie. 😂

Rough few days and woke up with a temperature this morning, so called in sick and popped a Clobazam. Slept until 1.30pm and currently my brain feels like fudge and I find it difficult to form sentences. Fun with benzodiazepine!

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“Most people know about fight, flight, and freeze — but another trauma response, “fawn,” is at the core of what people-pleasing is actually about.

To avoid conflict, negative emotions, and re-traumatization, people who “fawn” when triggered will go out of their way to mirror someone’s opinions and appease them in order to deescalate situations or potential issues.”

Woke at 4am to find eldest not home. He rolls in half an hour later looking like he lost a fight with a pavement, which he had.

Cycling home from the pub, not even the worse for wear, pedestrian steps out in front of him and he brakes hard and flips over the bars. Two sets of stitches, lots of abrasions, 3 hours in A&E. He's okay but looks terrible. He's going to have a rough time at work today.

Sigh. Hail Eris!

Some admin tweaks to tonight. Mainly welcome text for people not signed in, some behind the scenes stuff and disabling public API access to the timeline. No changes to the ToS/CoC.

Any questions, please feel free to fire them in my direction. ❤️

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Just a quick reminder that all my music is available for free / pay what you want on #bandcamp

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Had a lazy weekend other than taking youngest lad to the barber yesterday so we could both get shorn (and grab a Greggs sausage roll on the way home).

Eldest has gone back to uni for a couple of days, to sort out the details of him deferring his course for a year. This is spiking my anxiety somewhat, though I know he is safe and going to be okay.

I think a quiet evening is in order. 🤔

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I haven't tooted here for ages. Various reasons: Sorting out Hardware / Software problems, hardly writing or recordings anything for months.

I've decided to start doing #voiceovers again after quitting the game (and it *is* a game) a few years ago.

If you need a free read of an excerpt from your script for whatever - anything from gaming, novel narration to erotica, PM me a short sample and I will record a free demo for you.

I have a soft RP accent and my voice has been described as warm.

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'Anxiety isn't about being nervous or shy. It's your body existing in a physiological and mental state of emergency in the absence of danger.'

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Nobody likes being bored, but what happens when we 'unpack" boredom ?
Boredom appears as a feeling. We give the feeling a label ("Boredom")
It's an unwanted feeling, so we usually try to do something to get rid of it - as we do with most unwanted feelings.

Try this:

Close your eyes, and drop the label "boredom". It might help to visualise the word framed on a wall.

Then feel the remaining feeling and sit with it as best you can. Witho

Offline for a bit (excepting admin notifications). Working on my health and getting back to reading and writing, which has trailed off since I started (and finished) therapy. ❤️

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Does anyone have any expertise in UK law, particularly in the area of claiming benefits or possibly finances, or just familiar with the way it's phrased etc, and could interpret a bit of legislation on deliberate deprivation of capital for me? need to know if one point supercedes another. not necessarily today! thank youuu

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me: i wonder what would happen if i trained the neural net gpt-2 on christmas carols?

me: ...

me: oh NO

No decorations up yet. Ordered gifts yesterday, most of which are arriving today. This is the latest we've ever left it, but we're all tired and burnt out and need self-care. So it's okay. I think we'll spend the weekend catching up on chores and doing all the things a little at a time.

Kind of bummed I won't make it to see New Model Army in Nottingham tonight but I suspect I wouldn't enjoy the gig even if I did get there safely, I'm just too tired. 😴

I finish for Xmas in 10 minutes and my brain is already considering writing a small multiplayer game during the break. No! Bad brain! Down boy!

Went to bed before 8pm because my brain needed it. Weird dreams and it's 5.45am now but I feel better for it. At least able to disconnect from the last week's events and no cognitive impairment now (which I never get, hence me knowing I needed rest).

A day off today so I'll do some chores, cook and continue to rest. Back into the breach tomorrow!

Punk lyrics. My UK pol head right now. 

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