Andy 🐺 @andy@mentalhealth.social

My #introduction toot!

I'm Andy and I'm the admin of mentalhealth.social.

My interests are covered in my profile. On #mentalhealth I've briefly known the Black Dog in the past and work hard to keep him on a leash. My wife lives with #BPD bundled with #anxiety and #depression (though has a grip on all of them) and her illnesses are one of the things that drive me to be so passionate about #MH support and care. Which is why I set up this Masto instance; a safe place to socialise and chat. 👍

Slightly more compos mentis now.

To be clear, these are prescribed meds. I have Temporal Lobe Epilepsy and even though a grew out if it in my early 20s, it resurfaced a few years ago.

High fever can bring on dyscognitive seizures (absences) so rather than go back to taking Carbamazepine every day for the rest of my life, I pop Clobazam whenever there is a risk of seizure. Does the job by turning me into a zombie. 😂

Rough few days and woke up with a temperature this morning, so called in sick and popped a Clobazam. Slept until 1.30pm and currently my brain feels like fudge and I find it difficult to form sentences. Fun with benzodiazepine!

Woke at 4am to find eldest not home. He rolls in half an hour later looking like he lost a fight with a pavement, which he had.

Cycling home from the pub, not even the worse for wear, pedestrian steps out in front of him and he brakes hard and flips over the bars. Two sets of stitches, lots of abrasions, 3 hours in A&E. He's okay but looks terrible. He's going to have a rough time at work today.

Sigh. Hail Eris!

Some admin tweaks to mentalhealth.social tonight. Mainly welcome text for people not signed in, some behind the scenes stuff and disabling public API access to the timeline. No changes to the ToS/CoC.

Any questions, please feel free to fire them in my direction. ❤️

Ada (and Charles). 😍

Had a lazy weekend other than taking youngest lad to the barber yesterday so we could both get shorn (and grab a Greggs sausage roll on the way home).

Eldest has gone back to uni for a couple of days, to sort out the details of him deferring his course for a year. This is spiking my anxiety somewhat, though I know he is safe and going to be okay.

I think a quiet evening is in order. 🤔

Offline for a bit (excepting admin notifications). Working on my health and getting back to reading and writing, which has trailed off since I started (and finished) therapy. ❤️

No decorations up yet. Ordered gifts yesterday, most of which are arriving today. This is the latest we've ever left it, but we're all tired and burnt out and need self-care. So it's okay. I think we'll spend the weekend catching up on chores and doing all the things a little at a time.

Kind of bummed I won't make it to see New Model Army in Nottingham tonight but I suspect I wouldn't enjoy the gig even if I did get there safely, I'm just too tired. 😴

I finish for Xmas in 10 minutes and my brain is already considering writing a small multiplayer game during the break. No! Bad brain! Down boy!

Went to bed before 8pm because my brain needed it. Weird dreams and it's 5.45am now but I feel better for it. At least able to disconnect from the last week's events and no cognitive impairment now (which I never get, hence me knowing I needed rest).

A day off today so I'll do some chores, cook and continue to rest. Back into the breach tomorrow!

#MentalHealth

As if all the world, should now hold its breath; and
These are the days that we'll recall
When the masks are off the faces
And there's something to fight for
All the lines drawn down in the Soul
You can let your anger burn crazy.