Andy 🐺 @andy@mentalhealth.social

My #introduction toot!

I'm Andy and I'm the admin of mentalhealth.social.

My interests are covered in my profile. On #mentalhealth I've briefly known the Black Dog in the past and work hard to keep him on a leash. My wife lives with #BPD bundled with #anxiety and #depression (though has a grip on all of them) and her illnesses are one of the things that drive me to be so passionate about #MH support and care. Which is why I set up this Masto instance; a safe place to socialise and chat. 👍

@Stephen Thanks for the follow Stephen - welcome to the Fediverse!

Sorry for the lack of my usual spammy toots, all. Monday's counselling was positive but my head is a bit bouncy with things that came up. Normal service will resume in due course.

Cue a picture of a tubby middle-aged nerd playing noughts and crosses on a blackboard, with a weird clown doll watching on.

Woke at 5am though I suspect I'll drop off again. Some of the things I discussed in my first therapy session are REALLY in my head. Whole new ways of looking at the past four years (and in part, the problematic decade that came before). Things that make me feel...valid (?)

This is weird and positive and quite scary. I kind of feel like crying. I feel less angry. Or maybe, I understand that the anger is meaningless and I can use that energy more positively elsewhere, including for myself.

I start seeing a counsellor tomorrow. It's almost four years since "stuff happened" and I lived and worked through some frankly horrifying shit. I'm not looking forward to revisiting it with a stranger, even though I've played out that exact scenario, with hope, in my head for a long time.

Putting all my mindfulness skills to use at the moment and have been distracting myself all day. It'll be fine, I'm sure. It's just a bit scary. 😕

#MentalHealth #Therapy #Counselling

Today has not been a good day.

*grumps in Gen-X*

All outta cutlery today.

In the kitchen, listening to Floyd and boiling the shit out of all the fruit I can find that looks like it going off.

I should get my guitar and...jam along.

ITHANKYOU! 😏

When you're working on your #RPG and realise it's going to be even more leftie than you initially imagined...

I managed a little writing tonight, though not much. Things are falling into place and the game feels tighter with each iteration, but it's a little frustrating that I'm tired and often too dulled by Brain Fog to write much. This will be something I'll mention to my counsellor.

Back to work today, after two weeks off. I'm looking forward to it, as its been somewhat of a deflated couple of weeks (although I enjoyed spending time with @Jo and the boys immensely).

"e's got a right cob on." is my favourite line from Peterloo so far. 😂 I'm enjoying the film immensely, both for its historical and political accuracy, as well as attention to detail. I think I've mentioned before that The Peterloo Massacre is something of a minor, historical obsession of mine.